i'm tearing as i type this post.

today, my mum went for her x-ray scan.

the doctor told her to fast 4hrs bfore the scan,

but she forgot ALL about it.

she thought today was the 15th march.

her scan was on the 16th.

AND she ate her fill

only to realise today was her scan.

so, she bathed, got changed, we went to SGH.

when she got back, she asked me if i wanna eat subway.

i agreed.

she was acting all weirdish during the meal.

she asked for double ham,

olive, which i hate.

some yucky greenny veges

YUCK!

and a double chocolate subway cookie

which she normally dont eat.

then she bought a super ex top.

she didnt like to splurge.

when we got home,

my dad asked her how was the scan.

she said,

if the doctor calls in these few days,

i was like. totally blank. i didnt expect. to hear such a news. the feeling is just like, you're about to lose your next of kin. the person closest to your heart. i once wrote in my chinese reflection on an article. i said that our parents are just like our alarm clocks. they constantly remind us what is good and what is bad; they nag at us every single second, just because they love us. now the person i'm talking about is my Mother, the closest person to me in my heart.

Dear god, even though i'm not a christian nor a catholic,

however, i sincerely hope that you would bless my mother.

bless her with the best of health.

bless her to live to a ripe old age.

My mother is the most important person in my life,

and i would never want her to leave me. Never.

health is something we could never buy with any amount of money,

we must cherish it.

seeing that my mother is facing it optimistically,

i kinda wished cancer never exist in this world.

however, we still had to face the truth.

be it bad news or good news.

i really hope the doctor doesnt call.